These questions were left unanswered to me until recently that I have found the answer. Questions that I have been carrying and have kept bothering me since I was a kid. Questions that were piling up in my mind as there is no one to give me the answers. But I have had this mind set that I will be using all the things I have seen experienced, and in this world. I thought I wasn’t mature enough to simply the leave the questions blank and move on. But I realize, I was actually gathering all the answers in this world left by many people who have lived before, living and will live in the future. These questions shifts from my own personal experience, to the experiences of the world around me, and experiences of the past, present, future generations.
I need to first confess a few things about myself.. as I have understood and worried many people would not pick up all my thoughts..First, I am not a very logical person. My mind shifts from one thought to another. Because of this, I am not a good speaker. But I will try as much as possible to tell the truth order by order and piece up everything I know. I felt I needed to do this because I can’t sleep for few nights. I realized I have not bothered eating either until I finished this. Secondly, I have never stopped asking “Why”. Many people have stopped asking questions because they felt a need to move on and act. For them, that was maturity. I felt before that I wasn’t matured enough to start acting for myself and do things.
Some inner voice in me tells me to continue and that this isn’t a wrong act. Actually I’ve been experiencing lately nervousness - cold hands, cold feet, heart palpitating - but most of all excitement. Third, many people have been telling me before that I am innocent, I am a good person, I am very smart, I knew everything but actually I am not. At face view, they only knew about my performances as a “good” student, but actually I am continuously learning because I felt I still don’t know a lot of things. (Socrates) I have sinned just like many other people and I’ll try to lay down these later. Truth is, I have been making theories around me but dont tell it to anyone except my two other friends who have made me understood myself, Rachelle and Emii. I also thank my college friends for realizing a few things but for now I leave and tell about these things later on. Fourth, as a kid, I have been told by my father that I have a keen mind in observing things around me. Since I was a kid I am a fan of Detective Conan, I liked how he solved puzzles and mysteries. I’ve kept his quote “Only one truth prevails”. What was I pointing out on this? Justice! Another is my dream of solving mysteries. Fifth, I am a Scorpio. I’ve loved being deep even if other people tells me not to. Why did I even mention a zodiac sign? I’ve always believed signs tells something to us, an unknown message. Sixth,